Inspiration

Listen to me. Nothing pisses me off more than not feeling happy. I'm not talking about those long conversation where you finsih it off by saying "so yeah, I'm happy." If you have to sit there and convince yourself that you're happy, then you're not. End of motherfucking story.
Am I happy? Hell no. Besides all the drama, I feel unfulfilled. Not sexually (although that is debatable), but creatively I am unfulfilled.
Yeah, I got a very creative job. Literally, my job is come up with ideas and write them down so we can produce them into something. Now you would think that is a great job (which it is) where you can create anything all the time and be happy with it. The truth is, if you create all the time for someone else, it is really hard for you to create for yourself.
Example, say you're married, and you go out and sleep around (which BTW, I am strictly opposed to). You could probably still make love to your wife, but if you're unfaithful all the time, and with variations of sex (sisters, orgies, nuns, midgets, trannies), making love to your wife just won't happen.
I'm a guy who loves to work from inspiration. I get an idea and want to see the full movie and trailer playing in my head before moving on to writing it.
Right now I'm inspired. I feel this twitch that just won't go away until I make something.
It got me back into drawing. I haven't drawn seriously in almost 9 years. When that is what I used to be known for, that's a tough realization and a very long period of time without a kneadable eraser.
I'm drawing, I'm writing, and most of all, I am not content with just resting on my motherfucking laurels. I need to make something. I am not one of those fuckers whose like "I'm gonna do a documentary on Street Fighter cause I brought my Flip Cam to a tournament". Fuck you.
I love a good story and I love to make people feel something through the exploits of a fictional character.
Only time will tell just what that becomes. I'm inspired, but I'm not focused. So until then, we shall see.